You can’t expect people to get you. You have to talk to them. You have to relay the message. You have to tell them. You think they’re not being fair by not understanding, and by not paying attention. But you’re the one who’s not being fair. You’re not being fair by not opening up and telling them the things you need. You may think that they won’t understand you. But they will. There are people in your life who really care about you. So be considerate and tell them. It hurts them when they don’t know how to make you feel better. Leaving them guessing only makes them and you feel bad. It’ll frustrate them and it will disappoint you. So open up. It’s not that bad. It will get better.
Today I realized that I am not as ready as I think I am to enter into the corporate world. There’s so many things I need to learn and be briefed about. I know I always hear stories about how the people are like, and how offices are designed, and all the formalities and strictness for security because things are very private and confidential. The outside world is like Gretchen Wiener’s hair, it’s full of secrets.
I went to an organization today to talk about my requirement for a class. I have to go there, observe what they do and how they go about their day, as well as maybe interview someone here and there. It was like how I imagined. Cubicles, meeting and conference rooms, gentlemen in polos and ties. Ladies in their skirts and heels. But it was so much more. Being there was sealing the deal. This is it. I’m in an actual office. To do business and talk about things related to work. It may have only been for academic purposes but it was a wakeup call. I need to grow up. I need to learn. And fast.
Even if the people in that company were extremely nice (to the point that I want to cry because dammit, nice people are so hard to find these days) it was still very intimidating. Having read their credentials, the way they look at you, dress, and just knowing that they are well above you in-not only in years-but experience as well, is something that makes me want to double over. I’m a pretty confident person, some people even say that it’s not even confidence anymore but pride. But I lost all of it. I lost all of it when I was there and talking to these people.
During my one hour stay there, I probably said “thank you” more than I ever did in my life. But I am truly thankful that they would put some time for me, despite their busy schedules, just for a requirement of mine for school. So far, it seems like a very good company and I have a great feeling about my visits and observations to do there. I’m excited but anxious. I don’t want to seem too intrusive, ungrateful or rude. I don’t want to bother with their work.
Everything is looking good, though. And who knows, I might end up applying for an internship or even work here. Hahaha. Who knows? Only time will tell. But for now, I’m grateful and happy.